Well... my summer has officially come to an end.. I start back to work tomorrow. I really dont want to. I have enjoyed my 8 weeks as a full time mommy.. Preston has an excellent place to stay when i am at work and i dont worry about him at all.. i just miss him and i know i will really miss him tomorrow.. He has started doing so much. He is crawling all over the place; starting to pull up on things; and so proud when he can pull up and stand. He is starting to say some words and i know that everyday will be bring new accomplishments. It makes me sad to know that he will do those things and i wont be the "first" to see them. But Suga is so good about not saying anything and letting me see the "firsts" on my own. (Suga is Preston's babysitter/Ft. worth Grandma) He grows so fast. I have been reading a book called "i was a good mom until i had kids". It is really good. It is a book about being a mom and dealing with all the mom issues that women are too proud to really discuss. It talks alot about working moms that deal with the guilt of leaving their children and stay at home moms that deal with the guilt of not working or wanting to work and not. It is so good. It has helped me feel like i am not alone when i am so guilt ridden about leaving him and going to work or wanting to go workout and leave him for another hour when i have already left him all day at the sitter. I am still trying to find my balance between motherhood; working, and taking time for myself. I have talked to several of my mommy friends that i work with and they have all told me they have felt the same way and have given me ideas on how they take time for themselves. It is hard being a mom.. rewarding, and amazing.. but hard (regardless of if you work outside the home or not!!) Anyway... my goal is to find a good balance and take time for myself so i can be a better mom.. and to not feel so guilty doing it.
I know i havent posted any pics from out trip.. i will soon. Our trip was so much fun!! that is another post. No pictures with this one.. just some thoughts on going back to work.
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